♥You're the love of my life ; TANZALONG!

Friday, February 29, 2008Y

have not been blogging for almost a weeks.
blog going to die alr.
hahas.loads of things happened recently.
almost everything seems to be so smoothly alr.
but not some.
had nothing much to say bout him.
jus hope he will be fine.
he will be back th him in th past.
had not contact hin
since last saturday ):
sch going start for him.
hopefully he can find his happiness.
a gal who he will really treasure.
not regretting things he had done.
(:

currently in EFC lesson.
so BORINGGGGGGGGG lurhs -.-
doing our project stuffs.
finding lik freak lols.
cant enter friendster.
dont know wad happened
thanks to qinrong.
have him accompany for tis few days (:
went school together.
crapped with his friends.
so tiko lols.
hahahaahahahhaas (:
i jus missed my CRN test.
late for lesson -.-
reached school at 8 plus.
went to have breakfast before going to class.
:DD
i'm so bad today.
wore polo tee to sch.
lazy to changed to uniform.
qinrong having test now,JIAYOUS!
hahas.he everyday skipped class de.
humpfs.
probably tmr going jurong for pool with them.
hahas.think gonna be loads of fun again.
in train they stil can disturb others.
especially ME! )':

9:29 AM

Saturday, February 23, 2008Y

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives

Where we're gonna be when we turn 25

I keep thinking times will never change

Keep on thinking things will always be the same

But when we leave this year we won't be coming back

No more hanging out cause we're on a different track

And if you got something that you need to say

You better say it right now cause you don't have another day

Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down

These memories are playing like a film without sound

And I keep thinking of that night in June

I didn't know much of loveBut it came too soon

And there was me and you

And then we got real blueStay at home talking on the telephone

We would get so excited and we'd get so scared

Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair

And this is how it feels[1] -

As we go on

We remember

All the times we
Had togetherAnd as our lives change
Come

WhateverWe will still beFriends Forever

So if we get the big jobsAnd we make the big money

When we look back now

Will our jokes still be funny?

Will we still remember everything we learned in school?

Still be trying to break every single rule

Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?

Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?

I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye

Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

And this is how it feels

[Repeat 1]La, la, la, la:

Yeah, yeah, yeah

La, la, la, la

We will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?

Can we survive it out there?

Can we make it somehow?

I guess I thought that this would never end

And suddenly it's like we're women and men

Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?

Will these memories fade when I leave this town

I keep,

I keep thinking that it's not goodbye

Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

[Repeat 1 (3x)]

nice song,although ish so damn long alr.

hahas (: graduation sang by vitamin C.

bout frenship.

i cried again

i'm so upset.

everything so fuck up.

how i wish i dun love him at all.

i dun know him at all.
everything seem to be so blur in my vision alr.
i dont wish to care for him anymore.
i wan to give up alr.
moreover you keep thinking that i always din think
of you.
i cant even say NO.
den forget it.
th prob ish not really trust me anymore.
[i cried non stop each day.
do you really care for me?
i dont think so.
you always treat my tears for granted.
wadever i wish to do with you.
you seems to dislike thing.
sometime say we are fren but we din break.
i dununderstand,
can anyone tell me.wad ish th meaning of this?
define for me.
dont always think that you are angry den i'm sad larhs.
you always lik dont care.
this made me think that you doesnt care for me.
this ish wad i always say hack care.
yays :DD wadever larhs.
afterall everytimr i say so much.
you din even bother yo listen.
till you regret den you will come find me den say sorry.
till now i stil can remember that day you fooled me.
omfg.fucking fuck.
i really cant believe that was you who did it on me.
please do this to someone whom you doesnt care.
though i know i'm one.
but who th hell are you to fool me.
treat you lik baby.
den you treat me lik shit.
ask me do thing that i dislike.
only you can choose to do thing that you lik.
please larhs.
i'm human being not animals.
keep laughing at me.
you this heartless freak.
i dont need you anymore.
& i dont wish to rely on you anymore.
i'm tired.
i need some rest.
i have kong ju gan alr.
i cant clear that in mind.
whenever i need you th most you are gone.
& dont say that i'm wrong larhs.
you din think of my feeling toos.
from now onwards you & i dont have to think of each other
feeling anymore alr.
you can do wadever you want.
take care.
& thanks for th past few months.
hoope that you stay happy.

i really suffered load )':

10:04 AM

Friday, February 22, 2008Y

fcuk off peeps if you are so unreasonable.
even if th world end.
i wont care bout you.
i only loves him.
i'm selfish.but dont you think you are toos?
please lurhs.you're grown up alr.
still do th stupid things.
i dont understand why.
people in this world is so realistic.
when they need you they will
try every means to get you.
but when they are angry.
they can even scold you lik hell.
wad th fuck!
do really lik people to treat you lik this?
i dont really think.
if you are!
you're doom for sure.
you are pervert.,alright?
wadever.

i jus simply loves NKY

9:38 AM

Monday, February 18, 2008Y

everything had start afresh alr.
today ish my first day with baby :DD
& i'll promise to treat him better den previosly (:
i so loves him.
i jus dunno why.
even though he treated me lik wad in th past (:

11:05 PM

Saturday, February 16, 2008Y

thanks baby boy (:
he bought me a precious thots bear bear
brown in colour.vintage brown.hahas
& a heart necklace.whoooooooots.
you are so loving!

feel lik buying lot of clothes.
hahas.dunno why.
thinking of my cupboard ish
full of clothees.short also.

anyway.i'm going to chalet now.
whooooooots.
abit too sudden.
but this ish th only time when
i can meet my woodlanders :DD
i so miss them lurhs.
fives years alr.
i'm going bath now.
meetin zude,choonboon,yijie at 969 there (:
upload pics tmr or tonight.
btw.baby i'm meetin you night.
no worry

12:03 PM

Tuesday, February 12, 2008Y

i simply loves baby more each day (:
whoooooooooots!
bought him valentine present alr.
but sebas say one of it he will likes
den th other one he wont.
i really very scare ehhs.
& i'm so anxious.
wondering wad he bought for me?
hahas.him also.hahas (:
that pig.
miss his hug.even though
i din see him for jus one hour nia.
hahas. (:
that ish wad a bf call.
no matter wad will miss him lik hell :DD
anyways.i passed my SES test.
double happiness for me.
i got 32/50 &
i does not need to go for remedial.

11:12 PM

Sunday, February 10, 2008Y

i miss my baby boy ):

YAYS :DD !
anyway my dad allow me to take
o's maths this year.
& he's paying for me.
think ish 130bucks bahs
or 140 bahs.
nvmd.he pay.
but i had to go for th remedial ):
arghhhhhh.hates.
my maths mush win baby (:
he got B3.
i wan get A1.bleahs

9:10 PM

Saturday, February 9, 2008Y

wad can i do to change you back?
i miss th you in th past baby.
i dont wish to seperate from you.
i'll miss lik fucking hell.
i cant dont have you.
i too loves you alr.
tt why i wish to be with you every now
& than.i wish to spend my happy
moment with you.including sadness.
but ish not our sadness.
you are my soul.
without you.i dont know what will
happen to me.
so,please dont leave me alone
in th darkness,alright baby?
please dont abit get so agitated.
i really find it very hard to talk to you
everytime i talk to you nicely.
den you will scream at me
at your top of your voice.
i dont understand.
i know th me in th past really sucks.
but i changed alr.
if i dont loves you.
what for i changed right?
please!for th sake of me.
can you change your attitude toward me?
i'm so tired.i dont wish to see th
you in present.
i want th past you who treasure me alot.
& i miss you.
i jus hope that whatever i said.
you dont treat it as i'm speaking craps.
i cried.because i love you.
i really hope you would care for me.
jus lik other treat their gf.
i need your loves.
please dontt say that i'm comparing.
but ish true.
i'll learn too grow up & treat you nicely
dont say break ever.
my heart really broke ):
i wish to see you every secs.
i dont wish to seperate from you.
even if you are aslp soundly.
can you tell me that yes you can?
i'm really into you & than.
i cried again ):
i'm feeling really upset.
i miss th way you talking with me nicely.
i miss th laughter that we always share everyday.
i really loves you than anyone else.
i abit also feeling jealous.
lik gal talking to you.
i never had this type of feeling ever.
i just know that you belong to me.
no other one else.
i'm selfish,cos i loves you.
i cried because i loves you.
no matter wad i do.everything ish for you
ONLY YOU,baby (:
i wan th security that you gave me in th past.
ish so sweet!
th hug that you always gave me.
lik none one else had it before.
jus gave me a bless feeling.
that ish why god send you to me.
if i dont have you at all.
i really dunno wad ish loves me.
i cant even define it.
you are th one who made me feel wad ish loves.

i love you NKY

1:48 PM

Friday, February 8, 2008Y

afternoon meet baby.
went to causeway to watch movie.
kungfu dunk.by jay chou.
they movie ish so nice lurhs -.-
two thumbs up.
made me laughed lik mad.hahas.
he so cute lurhs.
so blur blur.finally so long.
now den i realised that jay ish so handsome.
baby said th words to me ):
really made so upset.
i dunno wad to say him alr.
so all i can do now ish to keep quite.

wensheng ish so cute lols.
hahas.keep making me.
laughed lik mad.
dun disturb me le larhs (:

await for this day to come & he pass me th ring (:

yays! :DD this ish to keep me awake.
allowing me myself to stay happy each day (:

i jus that hope that you are my only one spending
this coming valentine day with me.
i'm selfish.i dont wish to spend with other
part.that ish what couple are for.baby.
wad should i get for you?i'm confused!

all of a sudden.i so miss zann & sam ):
feel lik going shopping with them.
th craziness we did in class.hahas.
keep disturbing th class (:
i mush save money now.
so that i can spend all at one time :DD

8:59 PM

as wad benjaminTAN told me.
today ish a band new start.
so i'll cheerup (:
if he dun appreaciate me & there nothin that
i had done.den forget it.
i dun wish to say anymore.
i had done my part.
i had believe enough of you alr.
you are not making me believing in you.
dun say i dun trust you.
i can jus simply name out th bad you had
done on me.so dont make mme do so.
i have my anger toos.

2:01 AM

HAPPY 19TH BDAE BENJAMIN TAN WEI LUN ;DD

12:19 AM

Thursday, February 7, 2008Y

fuck shit.
i cant never say you.
you are always th best.LOLS!
i can never ask you out so easily.
yet they can!yays!& if i dun allow.
you will always say i'm not understandable.
but do you think of me ?
i dont think so.OKAYS?please dont think
that i'm always wrong & creating problems.
wadever.
say wanna call me chat.in th end wad you did?
whoooooots!someone made empty promises again
& pleaseeeeeeee stop saying me.ish you are th one first.
where got bf always with brother one.
do i always with my fren?
all my time i alr xi shen alr.
yet you lik dun appreciate.
always scold or say me.
wad can i say?
you are always great larhs.yet i'm not.
dun always think tt you are perfect okays.
FINEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!
i will not wait for your call anymore okays.
always think of th time so that you can chat with me.
in th end went out with your brothers!
wad a good personalities you have.
wad happened now.do you think of me.
ish this wad you say considerate.
will let me happy.
wad you say in th msg.can i really believe it.
this ish wad you did to me.allow me to believe
that brother are always important in your heart.
they are always first.
i din even did this to you every time.
yet you did this to me ample of time.
did i say anything?
even if i din.you will stil continue did this time
to me.yays.say wad ish past dun mention.
but every start when you ask me to believe you i did.
yet you break your promises to me again.
how can i ever believe you again.teach me can pro?
you think i wanna chao one mehs?
if i one i'm really insane okays & inhuman okays.
tt's crazy.i wont be one.
everytime try to fogive you..
yet thing will happened again.
YA!!!YOU ARE MAKING ME ANGRY.ISH NOT I CHOOSE.
YOU ARE TH ONE WHO CAN CHOOSE NOT TO MAKE
ME ANGRY.OKAYS?
idiot!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!dun always say i din think of you larhs hoh.
jus now you called.
i din say anything.
you can pekcek.
wad if i say thing.you would have scold me.
probably even bad words.
can i have th quan li to say no?
i dun think so okays.
everything now ish you decide alr wad.
stil ask me for wad.
i can only keep my fucking cheebye mouth shut.
harted towards you larhs.
you will definitely ask me go away again.
i know you better den anyone else
cos only you will did this type of thing towards me.
last time used to think that you are perfect.
but not now.
cos this ish how you treated me.
& dun expect me to say that you are perfect.
as i'm not perfect for you toos.
okays.probably this ish wad you think toos.
no comment bout it.i cant choose to ask you
to believe..

10:25 PM

reached home about 8pm.
jus had steamboat dinner.
tom yam.whoots!
anyways i'm being scolded today )':
i'm so not happy again!!!!!!
wth!!!!!!!!!!
today received eight hongbao.
think bout hundred bucks bahs.
jus simply hope so.
hahas ;DD
think i'm going to modified my house tt black
normal PSP.so that i can play DDR ;DD
yays.anyway who know where can i modified th
cheapest & they dl games for you?

9:08 PM

happy new year everyone ;DD
hope everyone will be doing great this whole year.
as for me i dun wish for too much.
as HAPPY [:
i wan to enjoy my life of seventeen
nothing much.
i feel like screaming out.arghhhhhh.
& take more nice nice pics.hahas

12:28 AM

Wednesday, February 6, 2008Y

please larhs.tell me wad i should den you will be happy enough
wad i do dun make you feel proud at all.
all things i do makes you feel so paiseh
wanting to give a best present.
but in th end you lik dun appreciate it.
wad should i do th next step.
wadever larhs hoh.pleased you.
still kenna scold.po lan pa larhs.
dun always think tt you give in den i dun.
hoping tt you will be very touching by th dance.
but in th end dun wanna go.
fine!i rather dance for my fren okays?
wanted this to be th most romantic present for you.
but nvmd.
i have nothing to say.you are th most best.
i cried for fuck man.in th end gain nothing except for
sadness lurhs.hoh?
thanks for giving those sadness tt no one had ever gave me.
always say i compared.
but do you think i have change my attitude since last time.
no matter wad i say still kenna shoot back.
lik tt how can i talk to you.
den dun talk to you,
say i give you attitude
now all i do ish kiam kiam.not to say anything.
& dun say i give you tt fucking attitude
STOP IT!!!!!!i have my own attitude.
can i believe your promish again not?
all are white lies.empty promises.
& please dun run away from problem larhs.
stop it.ARE YOU MAN?worse den a gal.
everything ish i decide.

6:08 PM

hooray.
baby ish going for class chalet alr.
whoots ;DD i'm so damn happy lurhs.
aniwaes tmr i'm not going to sch.
they are playin water -.-
choonhua called me jus now.
& he's not going toos.
he rmbed to call me.hahas.mush be happy!
today ish new year eve alr.
but i'm not so looking forward to it.
as i cant see my baby boy for days.
hope tmr mum allow me to go out jus awhile.
acc him go causeway buy his shoe..
with sebas toos.
probably only sunday den can meet him.
stil thinking of wad valentine present to get for him.
head gonna burst alr lurhs.
dun really know wad he craves for now.
probably short & shirt.
tt's goes a pair tt he can wear go.
whoots.but dunno wad colour -.-

12:42 AM

Monday, February 4, 2008Y

i'm jus so tired of school alr.
everyday have to take th stupid long bus den reach sch.
humpfs,so fustrating.
tmr school start at 11am.
meeting wenny at causeway at 930am.
finally i can sleep in bus alr.whoots ;DD
dun feel lik blogging anymore.hahas.
baby jus treat me damn bloody good todays (:
lovesssssssssss

10:58 PM

Sunday, February 3, 2008Y

i felt that my nose & eyes are very pain now.
cos i cried again jus now.
i really dont know why he had changed so much.
damn lots ):
my heart ish really aching.
why mush he treat me this way?i'm so confused.
pleaseeeeee!teach me how to pleased you.
how i wish you can be happy each day.
now suddenly be so tempremental.

went bugis jus now with baby & sebas.
bought another cny clothes & a grey cardi.
nothing much to say for today.
as i'm really down.
moodless for this weeks.i'm sorry for wad
i had done if i'm in th wrong.
i'm jus feeling very confused.
& not sure wad should i do th next step.

11:26 PM

Saturday, February 2, 2008Y

fuck fuck fuck FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!
disheartening day!!!!!!!!!
fuck off larhs.

12:45 PM

Friday, February 1, 2008Y

now in class.
was pissed off by ABBAS,
damn irritating,
keep taking my phone.
den later see my msg..FUCK OFF larhs.
was late for one hours for lesson.
purposely want.
with wenny & zann.
went to had breakfast in th cafe one.
den walked around in th campus.
now having EFC.
dislikes th teacher like siao lols.
jus called baby.
he's sleeping lik pig.
humfps.stil say angry me.LOLS -.-
after school gonna go home.
rest awhile.den later meeting baby they all.
they cutting cake.for dennis's bdae.
shiok ehhs.today 17 le.so fast.
i wish mine today.so that i will receive lot of
presents.hahas (:
lots of surprise.yeahs.
but still need to wait for months.
jus now crapping with choonhua.
going to his house this new year.
hahas.poker!!!!with william toos ;DD
so anxious lurhs (:
gonna call baby too.
but dun think he will wanna go.
at most he will say go larhs. -.-
sad sad lols )':

10:24 AM