Headed out with cliques today. Not a bad one, i guess. Meetup with gerald and delvin at shaw house. I was like kinda lost. don't know where the hell is scotts. /: Shopped around. did not buy anything. :D Yays. i made it. like finally. hah! Cheehow and Chuck came t find us at hereen. Had dinner at xinwang again! Had black pepper beef baked rice. Yummy. Walked down t monster cue. Pool again! I won everyone except delvin. Stupid him. White ball went in. Trained back at 1140pm. & delvin and me will be getting a head porter soon. Same as gerald. And i managed to find th same design. Have t ship in from usa.
Alright, mood isn't great now. I'm feeling rather down. Yays, you guys might think, like again?! Yays, is like again. I couldn't control my emotional towards him. fml. he like doesn't give a damn to me today. Is like one day hot, the next day cold. wtf?!?!?! Am i really someone important in your life? Am i really the one whom you love? i doubt so. You only need someone at times. Probably i'm the one in your mind this way. but, i'll get hurt. I'm so into you. All i could do now, is to be silent. Waiting here quietly. Loving you. Protect you, Care for you. Seeing you happy. that's all. I felt so helpless. Like an idiot. Alright, i admit it. :( i really don't want my life to be this kind. I want it to be interesting. Everyday, waking up. There's an aim. But i felt that life is so meaningless. Wake up in the morning thinking, will you be calling me? will you be missing me? will you be texting me? when will you be meeting me? After this meetup, when can i get to see you again? i kept questioning myself. But i realised that i couldn't answer this. Why why why? /: How i wish i did not fall in love with you. I really need someone t fall onto. But who can i run to? But, when i saw his name appear on my caller id. I'm happy and excited. (: i just don't know why. How on earth am i suppose to face you?
Great, i fall out of this.! I'm isn't that happy as what you see,.
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